Control or Trust

I think I could possibly write a book on this subject because I struggle with it so much. So here it goes. 

​My boss often tells me the only constant is change. Just when you think you have everything settled and get into a routine something changes. This has been so true for me over the last 4 years, really, isn’t that what life is, just a series of changes?

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5

This verse came up the other day for a reason- I was thrown a curveball when I heard an admin on our team was leaving. She is someone I trust completely when I am away from the office to handle anything that comes her way. It is my hope that she will thrive and succeed in life and grow in her career,  so I really shouldn’t be shocked she was scooped up by someone else because she was doing just that. After hearing this,  I started thinking of all the things that could and would go wrong after she left.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5

This verse was needed again as we struggled with one of the kiddos who is so headstrong and opinionated about life. Wondering why we have rules in place. Control or trust, not sure you can have both, I think it has to be one or the other.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5

I struggle with releasing control. Ask my husband he will second this statement or would write it on a billboard for all to see. I tend to hold things so close to me and fear the thought of the unknown more than anything. When I start down this path it spirals into deep thoughts of not knowing how long I will be here, not understanding if I will see my kids grow, will get married, or have kids. Then my fears kick in about death and not being able to imagine what it will be like to not be here to not see how everything turns out. It’s this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I just can’t even explain. 

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5

Things may get rough but I know that if I put my trust in Him He will carry me through!
My hope is that I will continue to repeat this verse over and over in my head as I talk to them, as I pray for them, as I face the next day, the next challenge.  Parenting, thoughts, life, and trust more than anything is not easy…

I need to remember I am not in control. Jesus has them, Jesus will not let them fall, He may teach them things but He always has His arms open for them, for me, for us all.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5